curvy and proud

It took me a lot of courage to publish this post that was sitting in my draft for weeks. I decided to publish it anyway because I’d be so happy if this post helps at least one miserable person out there.

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“Eh fatty, lose weight lah a bit.” “Eh fatty, no one is going to marry you if you don’t lose weight.” One girl even wrote to me in my Standard 6 autograph book “Don’t forget to diet when you’re old/big enough”. How many of you have had the struggle of body issues when you were growing up because people around you just wouldn’t give you a break? How many of you were shamed because you weren’t skinny according to the society’s standards?

I am not born naturally flawless. In fact, I’m far from it. I am naturally chubby, I have uneven skin tone, I’m dark brown, my hair is unforgivably wild and curly. When I was younger, my self esteem was non-existent. I refused to take part in activities just because I felt I wasn’t good enough. I let my weight weigh me down from everything I wanted to do.

And you know what the sadder part is? I became the product of my environment. I turned out to be the product of other people’s limitations. It took me a long time to actually find my self-identity. I refused to let people get in my head. I told myself I will not let anyone bully me anymore. Imagine being told by an uncle that the car feels heavier on the right side because you were sitting there? It hurt my feelings and I couldn’t sleep that night. I was 13 back then. These nasty comments went on for years until I decided to put a stop to it.

One day I woke up and I decided to not let anyone tear me down because of my flaws. I decided to not look at myself as a full of flaw person. I told myself I’ve to think I’m fabulous and when I did that, people started showing more respect. I’m fab and I wasn’t going to let anyone tell me otherwise.

Miraculously, people started loving me more when I’ve started loving myself. If you think you’re fat, then no matter what you wear and how much makeup you put on, you will feel fat because that’s how you see yourself. Don’t bully yourself, let it go and wear that short dress you’ve always wanted to wear. The best makeup you can wear is your confidence. Embrace your curves, dress your best, wear self confidence as your make up and you’re good to go! You’ll be surprised with the way the world looks at you when you’re dead confident.

Never let anyone tell you you’re not pretty enough. Not good enough. Not smart enough.Start loving yourself. Wear your favourite clothes. Eat your favourite food. And if anyone tries to tell you that you’re not going to be married because of your curves, you’re better off single than marrying a man who only looks at you as a heartless piece of meat. I think it’s about time to let loose and live life according to your standards of living. Do not lose weight for a guy. Do it because you want to. Do not stop eating your burgers because your grandmother told you so. (Save the healthy eating lecture here because I’m also aware about the importance of eating clean for health, I’m never against that FYI.)

It’s amazing how much a little change in your mindset does to your life. You are what you think. Life is too short to dwell in body issues. It’s definitely too short to spend pleasing people who refuse to see you beyond the flaws curves you have. Do not let your body issues hold you back from doing the amazing things you’re meant to do. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE 🙂 

These days, I’m just too cool to care. You think I’m fat and will remain single because I’m curvy? Never mind. I am fab, I’ve done pretty epic things in life and my career is amazing. To those people who have ever put somebody down for their physical appearance, SHAME on you.

PEACE.

best birthday ever!

*This post is long overdue! Read it in retrospect!*

Birthdays have never been a huge deal in my family. Yes my parents threw the mandatory 1st, 2nd, 3rd birthday parties (well until my sister was born *rolls eyes*) but I can’t remember them vividly. Oh yes, they also threw me a small 21st birthday party despite me insisting on not to have one. Not complaining, though. hahah

This year was different. I gave myself 2 birthday gifts (one was a material item so  shall not elaborate on that). Kind of a splurge but whatevs, it was the best gift I’ve ever given to myself. I bought a ticket for AR Rahman Live in KL! Paid 300 for it, something I wouldn’t do for just any concert. When I knew he was coming down to Malaysia, I had to get myself a ticket because it’s AR Rahman. Nuff said. When I found out that the concert was going to happen on the 14th of May (2 days before my birthday) I was stoked!

I’m pretty sure everyone of us have a childhood celebrity that we admired and wish we saw them live one day. Ever since I was a kid, I grew up listening to his songs. There’s a song composed by him for every stage of my life. Cliche but true. For every happy moment, for an emo moment, for a situation that hurt me more than anything…you name it, I’ve a situation song composed by AR Rahman for everything. Heck, I even have a few jams that I’d play (also dance and sing along) while I do house chores!

How did it go? Well, I’m sure you’ve heard about the heavy downpour and how the concert was delayed for 2 hours and cut short due to the poor planning by the organizers. Despite all that, it was still one of the best days of my life. Was drenched head to toe, cold and hungry but when he came on stage and started singing, it was a dream come true! Wouldn’t trade the experience for anything else. If anything, the rain was just like magic sent from heaven, paired with the angel-like voices and amazing music!

My night got better when he sang Dil Se Re, my ultimate favorite Hindi song from the movie Dil Se starring my favorite actor, if I may add.

Definitely the luckiest and happiest day of my 2016 so far! This year started off rough but things got better and are still getting better so I’d say this was one of the best birthdays ever!

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When he started Dil Se Re ❤

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Another favorite singer of mine, Benny Dayal! 

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p/s: Excuse the quality of the pictures because I had to zoom! sorry! Took very limited pictures as well as I was busy recording  videos and singing along! Nope, I won’t upload the videos because you don’t wanna hear me sing in the background!

Till next post!

xoxo! 

yellow brick road

H and I recently (almost a month ago) went to Yellow Brick Road cafe in search of a good big breakfast. A few days before our brunch date, we had that million dollar question in mind. WHERE TO EAT? One of the hardest decisions you’ve to make in life is to decide where to eat…sigh…

As usual, I turned to Mr. Google to get an answer. After much thoughts and are-we-rajin-enough-to-drive-to-Bukit Damansara-discussion, we decided to go and try this much raved about Yellow Brick Road cafe at Bukit Damansara. (Yes, we will drive for food!) hahaha

Our verdict? The big breakfast was amazinggggg! Though I prefer the sauteed mushroom from Acme South(more garlicky), the dish as a whole was delicious! Especially their mixed beans. Come on, we all have had the experience of going to fancy restaurants only to get some canned beans on your plate and you pay a bomb for that junk…but the ones in YBR did not taste like that at all! Thumbs up for that! They also served the Big Breakfast in a pan, which is quite nice as well.

Overall, I’d rate Yellow Brick Road 9/10. Food was good, waiters and waitresses were really friendly, Instagram-worthy (big plus point!) and if you’re lucky, you’ll bump into some Malaysian celebrities as well. We saw Ning Baizura!

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We’re serious people

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Definitely Instagram-worthy! 

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Full tummy, happy faces! 

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This portion is sure to fill you up! LOVED IT!

Till next post!

xoxo

ttdi cafe hunt

My fellow tai tai has got a new job and she has a week or so of free time before she starts her new job. It has also been a while since we last met so we decided to go cafe hunting at TTDI. Well, not exactly hunting if we did our research before, is it?

We decided to try Pickle & Fig first. Loved the ambiance of the restaurant. Quiet, very rustic decoration and a wide selection of food! H ate the big breakfast and I had their turkey roll and wild mushroom panini. T’was yummy and the food were reasonably priced. You can have a decent meal for under RM30, depends on what you eat of course.

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The interior

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The menu. If you want a closer look, just visit their cafe 😉

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Great place with even better food!

After downing the food above, we were still hungry for more. So we googled for dessert cafes around that area and ended up at Dotty’s (which is like 15 steps away from Pickle and Fig!). H and I have heard about their famous salted egg yolk cronuts (marry doughnut and croissant and you get cronuts!) so we decided to try them. Man oh man, was it rich and yummy! IF you’re not a fan of loud music and bustling cafes, you may want to skip this one. IF you think you can deal with the noise and crowd, pleaseeee go and try their cronuts! I would definitely go again to have it and try their other pastries as well.

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Nuts about their salted egg yolk cronuts!

H is going to be stuck with her hectic corporate schedule and me with my unpredictable schedule, I don’t know if we can do this often. But we will surely find time to do our favorite activity together. I know people who have drifted apart after they started working, but I think the key here is to MAKE time. Maintain friendships with good people although you don’t see them often. It’s good to acknowledge the other person’s existence and what goes in their lives every now and then no matter how busy you are.

changes and 26

My friends would disagree, but I am an introvert. And for an introvert to have back to back busy weekends filled with gatherings, family functions, a concert, friends meet ups and all, it can be quite tiring. I crave for some me time at times like these. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy human interaction, but only in small doses. HAHA I’ve been so busy living life that I didn’t have enough time to pick up a book and read or to blog! But busy is good, for an over thinker like me. 😛

I turned 26 a few days ago. This birthday felt more special than any other birthdays I’ve had because I was finally genuinely happy of myself. Also got myself a gift that no one else can get me (maybe).

Felt so happy and proud about the things I’ve achieved. You know you’ve made it when birthday messages come along with phrases like “I’m so proud of you” and as my boss put it ”F*cking proud of you babe!”

It felt so good to have no burden on my heart, to let go of the things that was holding me back, to feel good about myself and of what I am today. From the age of 18 on, I truthfully could not have foreseen how much things were going to transform. How much was going to change. I always tell people that if you don’t know what your gut feelings are telling you, it’s either because you don’t listen to them or trust yourself enough.  Took me a while to fully understand myself, but now that I do, it’s the greatest feeling in the world.

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Birthday lesson this year would be you don’t have to be the individual that people imagine you to be even if they mean a lot to you because at the end of the day, it’s your life. You decide the kind of adventure you want to embark on. You’re not indebted to make people understand your life choices. Trust me, most people aren’t going to fall asleep thinking about where you’re heading in life.

To many more amazing birthdays!

think before you speak

If there’s one thing I’ve learned from my surroundings and people I’ve met after I started working, it has got to be to think before you speak. It took me a while to get the hang of it. But once I did, I think I’ve stopped hurting other people’s heart (unintentionally).
See, I came from a background where I never needed to be the leader of my family. I never had to worry about my source of money because all I had to do was ask my parents and there it is. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a spoiled brat (i’m faaaar from being one); I had to earn my rewards when I was younger but you get the picture right? You never had to worry about rent cos mommy and daddy have got that covered. You did not have to worry about helping your parents to educate your sibling.
I’ve never worked a day in my life until I started working after graduation at the age of 23. These are all blessings that people like me take for granted. And sometimes, when you speak, you just don’t stop to think how would someone feel about it.
For instance, when you get yourself something pricey and you’re speaking to someone who’s not as privileged as you are. You’ll say “You should get it. It’s only RMxxx.” See, the point here is not to brag about the price you paid for something. What’s cheap for you may not necessarily be cheap for others. It could be only for you. It could be a month’s rent for your friend.
What comes easily for you, it may not be as easy for them. And then it hit me. Everyone’s fighting their own battle. Some worse than others. We can’t do much to ease their burden. But we can help by not being insensitive when we speak. It does not mean that these underprivileged people are pathetic. I thought it would be nice to just not speak about how easy things are for you in front of people who are fighting hard to survive.
An incident happened to me once that made me realize this.I lost sleep over it because I felt so bad that someone was hurt with what I said. I shall not elaborate more because it’s personal for my friend. But what I’ve learned is a lifelong lesson that I will also teach my future kids. Be sensitive. Have some compassion. THINK before you speak.
 Trust me, that changes everything.

#taitailifestyle

H and I have been living the tai tai lifestyle lately. We’ve been going for weekend brunches, trying out new restaurants and we were even willing to drive all the way to Bangsar for food. (as if Bangsar is thaaaat far) LOL

Usually after brunch, we’d go for a movie to kill time. Finally, living life. hahahaa…I’ve decided this  blog is not going to be one of those “restaurant review” type of blog because let’s face it, there are wayyyyy too many of those out there.

No pictures of menus, ambiance, interior design or whatsoever here because when there’s food in front of me, I only have the time to take one picture for Instagram before diving into it. All you can expect is honest reviews about the food that I tried and if I found it worth it or not.

A few weeks ago, we tried The Daily Grind at Bangsar Village 1. My verdict on the chicken burger I ate; 8/10. The burger was juicy, loved the sweet potato chips as side dish. The price was reasonable for me. About RM40 per person, with drinks. We were also their first customers of the day. The restaurant was fairly quiet at 11am, so we kind of had a peaceful meal.

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A few weeks after that, we decided to try Acme South at Bangsar Village as well, located right opposite The Daily Grind. We were also one of the early birds that time! I tried their waffle with fried chicken and mocha latte. I’ve always wanted to try waffle with chicken and scrambled eggs after I saw Rachael Ray making it in her show, so it was good to finally have a taste of it. I liked the combination of the sweet and savoury taste. It went well with the maple syrup they gave. H had their Big Breakfast (I tasted a bit from her plate and it was amazinggggg!). I’m usually skeptical about big breakfasts; especially about the sautéed mushroom they serve with it because I’ve tasted one that tasted like dirt, but this one was goooood! Think I’ll go back to have their Big Breakfast. 😉 I’d rate Acme 8/10. Great service too!

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We’ve decided to go more on these kind of food trips on weekends, because hey, life’s too short to always rot at home.